What's happening today?

Nothing much and it makes me feel quite sad and down. I can feel my emotions hiding away at some corner of my heart, my mouth refusing to move and my hands and legs feeling all lazy- My entire body may be staging a silent protest, against the doctor's call to stay at home and fully recovered.

Rest- Something I find very very very hard to do.
Rest, sleep, stay home one entire day! NOOO.That's not really my thing. It's a pain to even stay home more than 6 hours, not counting sleeping la. The least I have to do is go for a walk or run in the park. But this week and the following week, I am forced to stay home (literally stay home) the entire 10 days.

"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future" 

Since this verse has always been the anchor of my soul, despite the different seasons, I have been asking God why this, at this season or hour of my life. 
Is there something that you want me to do? Are you teaching me something? Have I not rested enough that The GOd of the universe needs to give me 10 days of rest. I thought I am pretty rested and stress-free. Everything is really fine and more importantly, I am feeling fine and not just fine, but great and happy. Why did you give me this long break.I know that You have planned this for me for specific purpose and plan. 

Sabbath

Just last week, while trying to plan my schedule, I found myself thinking if I should keep my Sabbath. Despite knowing the importance of resting, I really felt the need to do some 'important' work and meet people on Sundays, Isn't this the normal life of a student, especially during the peak period. Furthermore, I had a take-home-weekend homework. I had all the right to miss my Sabbath day (I thought so) Well, obviously- I was wrong. 

Upon reading Lesli Ludy's Blog entry, I came to realise that kind of heart, my heart is. 
A heart that seeks excitement and adventure  A heart that longs for something new (which explains the overshopping issue) Its about driving myself to a challenge, a new environment or even insanity so that my heart is filled with a temporary satisfaction. At the same time, I love the comfort of routine and structure. This complicates the already complex matter of the personality that God has given me. It seems like a tussle or struggle. 

Rest (I believe that its a physical AND EMOTIONAL thing) 
This few days, I am rested emotionally. I am learning to find comfort in the silence and solitude. I am learning to enjoy simple things and I am feeling less guilty for resting (another problem area).