Seeking Him in the morning is one the fiercest battle fought everyday and there are some days, where I fall back into the bed in defeat and there are other days, where I won the battle, with my eyelids half open. But every time, I successfully wake up early, it gets easier to do so, especially since we do have the Holy Spirit in us to help us.
This week in dg, I decided to talk about feelings. Most of the time, we think that girls are rather emotional people and talking about feelings is more than normal to us.
This is so not true!
Since the btw for me, I have been intentionally pausing just to take a look at the emotional aspect of my life. More than often, people put little importance in our feelings and emotions. But it struck me that God wanted me to feel and think about what I am feeling. It was during the actual feeling of our feelings, that we actually can feel the power of God's presence, comfort, joy, love and it goes on. If we do not feel what we are feelings, how then can we feel God's feelings towards us.
The girls were shocked at my 'ice -breakers' of getting in tuned with their feelings. After 5 minutes of silence Sophia asked me, " What are the feelings mentioned? " and Joy wanted to take a look at the book. Gloria who told that she did not want to pen down her feelings started writing stuff down. Praise the Lord. So we shared about issues and how feelings regarding that.
So what happens now? Do our issues get solved? What is the point of talking about feelings and emotions.
So like always, I was quite lost about what to do, after our sharing which lead itself to PRAYER.
Prayer helps us to hold up our feelings and emotions to God and ask Him to speak to us regarding these feelings and thoughts. To understand why we feel how we feel, to know and address different issues underneath those feelings. It is also to be authentic and real to God by not wearing that mask or putting on a false self. To be open and honest with ourselves and even to each other. There was this silent acceptance of respecting ourselves as we share and respecting other as others shared. I can't quite begin to explain the atmosphere. But it was wonderful to be in such a kindred companionship.
In all honestly, I couldn't see much tangible impact of doing such an activity. There were different responses from each of the girls present. But all is well. The bond and dynamics of the group has grown in such a weird and authentic way that my heart is filled with gladness.
Personally, I feel that I am in such a intimate relationship with Jesus just because we share feelings and how I am always blessed by His promises and presences in my life.
To know yourself so that I can draw closer to God. (:
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