Darker than expected late twenties I

Post (edited from a post from Desiring God) to kickstart my blogging phrase.

These are the five feelings.emotions that overwhelm and dillusion the wandering soul
My first one is disappointment.
" we show up at the doorsteps of late twentie, hoping to meet our childhood dreams. it turns out that we oversold ourselves to the future. No family to call our own, no house, no career advancement, no children, no astronaut mission and no working for the humanitarian society or being an ambassador. How I feel right now is summed up into these few words, " emotionally unfullfilled, professionally unimpressive, spritutally stagnant and financially in dire straights. i feel a sense of doom as I approach the future and realise that my carefree and "normal" childhood dreams are just dreams. The door of childhood are closed behind. "This can't be it. This cant be all there is." Or is it? L


God was a twentysomething once — Christ in the flesh. But there is more. He created twentysomething-ness. He died for twentysomethings and was raised for twentysomethings. I know, I know. It’s irrelevant. It doesn’t change anything. Jesus Christ doesn’t change anything, you might think.

 Today, I will decide to grieve the end of my childhood dreams, so that I can leave it behind. "I need to be like a shellfish that continue to open and close their shells on the tide schedule of their home waters after they have been translated to a laboratory tank or a restaurant kitchen." (William BRidges, "Transition") I need to acclimate to my new surrounding. Today, I will do the hard work of letting go my good life, the optimistic, unjaded, fearless one and now be free to live a new twenty something life.


Before anything else, we need one thing in our twenties: a meaningful task. It’s part of our constitution as human beings — to seek and yearn for and mourn the absence of a meaningful task: “aspire to live quietly, and to mind your own affairs, and to work with your hands, as we instructed you” (1 Thessalonians 4:11). 

 Dear God, today, this very night, I am letting go of all my dreams and the disappointments of these unfulfilled dreams in my life. Please forgive me for looking at my life with judgemental eyes and resentful heart. Help me to realise that "all the days ordained for me was written in Your book" and that You are not only big, but powerful, loving and wise. I know that Your eyes are always on me.
I lay down all my feelings and disappointments at the feet of the cross.