I miss making spontaneous decisions, now, everything has to be so well planned, like a robot. Like where to travel or can I afford it or what should I say and which friend to hang out with or if my tennis lessons can go on, during this pandemic. 

Siannnnnnnn. 

That's how I feel. Siannn about everything. 

Supposed to take a long walk today to lower Seletar but laziness got the best of me. And now I need to think of fun things to do instead of mopping around in bed. 

Also, a very lovely day today, wind speeds were were sweet. Yesterday wind speeds were crazy, it blew down our laundry. 

I am also feeling a bit tired of being the middle person, the nice person amongst family, especially family and then between friends. But it's necessary for general well-being.