God, 

Please unmess the mess in my life. Help me to ride on the waves with You instead of sitting at the shore and building sandcastles. Help me to know that the life I envisioned for myself may not be the same life that You have planned for me years and twilight centuries ago. I kind of know that Your plan is far better than any possible plans that I come up with myself. I want to be where you are and do what you want me to do. Life is neither very tidy nor fair. It seems to be going wayward and no matter how much I try to steer it's course, it does not move in the direction of my wants and desires. Is there something wrong with my desire or is there something off about the desire behind my desire.? Confused me seems to feel the nervousness in my veins, wondering if I am walking in Your will or doing what other want me to do. What do You think? My thoughts and feelings seems to be all over the place.