Forgiving is like everything.
I struggle with this every time when there is a decision needed to make whether to forgive a person. Helloooo! HAHA. We are not asked to forgive, we are commanded to forgive! It's a choice that's not much of a choice if you want to be filled with joy and lead a victorious Christian life.

Haven been feeling pretty edgy the past few days. Okay la. Edgy is totally the wrong word. ( leaning to be honest and authentic) okay, I was feeling very disappointed and hurt by stuff that happened both in the past and recently. Instead of forgiving the person, I tried other means of figuring out a way to bring back joy or peace in my life like going for a walk in the park:/ the last attempt was me on my knees and explaining to God how hard it is going to be and I can't forget things so easily. But finally, I did. Didn't feel any explosion of happiness or whatever:/ it took like 2 hours while I was doing tang dynasty research that I came to a realization of how I felt. I was free from sadness and even resentment towards him.

I don't know what is going to happen tomorrow or even the days and week ahead, but I know that I did the right thing and yay, my Father is pleased with me :)