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Monday, March 31, 2008 @ 8:16 PM

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BEL. DEBBIE.SWEENEY.KAYMIN.Can we meet this coming saturday for lunch anywhere?

Cant you ever study enough? What the heck am I doing blogging in the middle of the night, when there is a history test in the afternoon. I seriously dont know- DOnt bother to question me. Ah. I cant explain how much I hate history tests becuase you brain is packed and stuffed with information. And I am scard that the infor might leak out somehow and I will be stoning during the test. Am I paranoid again? I am currently feeling the stress of an appeal student. This are the conseqences faced by appealing in. And sometimes, I wonder why again? Of course, it so useless to think about such things now, when I am already in the school. It's the first of april already. April Fools day. Wonder who was the mad guy that came up with this day. He must have been super free and bored!

I need to start reading history reading already, judging from my not-so-deep insight on Southeast Asia history. Cause today when mr Rajoo asked questions, I was once again blur and stoning-with my fingers moving in order to write notes. And I am already mising Evelyn-and really wanted to visit her in hospital today, but was classes ended at 4pm and we all were so tired. Well, my class was once again united! we all wrote in a card for her-but angelina forgot to bring it along, when she was visiting her. And I try to video-call her, during math tutorial today, but it was a failure. sigh!. well, sherry also didnt go to school today, so was practically bored during recess-. I should stop wallowing in self-pity-Crap, tmr there is mass killer pe and training directly after that. I really hope that we need not do suicide runs. You have to run to fully understand the meaning of suicide. I think. I hope coach comes, so that we will play a full and proper game and maybe we know who got into the team.

Saturday, March 29, 2008 @ 6:17 PM

hello(:

For the past 2 year, taking pure history, I have always dreaded history test, both essay or source based. History always brings out the worst in me. And Evelyn and Fabian brings out the worst in every morning in class. Cause Evelyn always craks all the lame jokes and tell me all her funny stories in the morning. When I am so tired and sleepy, she perks me up. And she is so harmless-cause she is not racist. Unlike some people in class-I am really not sure if they are joking or just habouring a deep hatred for the other race. I will not be passive about this, nor will I overacte.No names will be mentioned, unless they want me too. And fabian always makes a dramatizing entrance in class every morning too. I am really not sure why,

So as weeks past, true characters of people are more evident. Which needs some time of adjusting and tolerating. And I am once again glad of my PW group(: Thank goodness, cause one year is really and truely a long time to be working with this people. Queenie/Aaron/Ken. That reminds me about my PI, which is dues next week-consisting of 500-word report. Seniors said that when PW officially starts, we will be dreading it totally. But in my case, I am disliking Pw, to the fullest. Never knew I could ever hate a subject so much. Modernisation or Journey?

I am really looking foreward to go for youth tmr, Cause I will be starting to serve in children ministry by next week. Teaching small children is the best part, but playing drums is not the nice part. Can I get out of the music ministry officially? Ah everything has started getting really hard to cope. And daily devotion is taking a lower place, which I know is not right.So really having trouble to prioritise my time well. If I ever say this to any anyone older, they will talk about time-management. Then I will be just further annoyed with everything. And family life is not doing any good, in helping me to adjust. Okae, will stop complaining.

I have studied history. I think. Cuase I am not sure how much of information about the cold war, is still embedded in my head. And tomorrow, will focus more about the way to write an essay. Not really expecting much from this history test, cause it will be my first in JC. SO that this will risk the disappointment, from the aftermath. sigh. Thanks to my tutorial teacher, who gave us a another essay-completely unrelated to the CA. Because my entire class didnt finish doing their tutorial homework. We are really very united, I would say(: Okae, somehow we all deserve it. Now I will be contradicting myself, by saying that she is so not reasonable. I dont care.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 @ 3:28 PM

Hello(:

School has been a mixed mesh of ups and downs. With the homework piling on, the fear of being thrown out of the classroom and the upcoming CAs, History especially, I need more time. Training has increased by a day. So now the number of training is like 4! yes FOUR! So of course, am also dead tired. And the killer mass PE are usually right before training, which makes everthing so much worse. So we just do alot of fitness and conditioning, and very little of skills and even playing the game. Which of course, would be my first love, playing the game itself. OKae, not everything about school is that bad.

Today had a great laugh with Queenie/Jarad/Fabian at the entrance of the girl's toilet. Because they were dared to go to into the girl's toilet and pee. HAHAH only Jarad was the brave one that went into the toilet to style hiis hair, cause he didnt feel like using the wonderful facilities. And am also always amused by sherry's hand actions whenever she talks, so during recess, Evelynn/Junyi/queenie and I will just suddenly crack up, whenever she starts to talk. Ah. well, thank God for these people that actually makes school life bearable, especially when classes end at 5pm. Daphne and I were talking about the netball team, and we realized that there are actually 14 players, so 2 player wont be playing for A div this year. This is my first time in my entire life, that dont mind not playing for A div. Sigh..okae well, about the more jovial things, I am looking forward for this friday-cause there is cell. But then saturday will be spent mugging for history essay. sigh again. I am seriosuly trying to write an happy post, but it's not working. oh, I have decided to help my class, by running the cross-country or something like that. yeah it about 1.8 km. okae looks quite short right, but sprinting or striding or whatever that make me run faster is not that sweet. And I already feel so anxious and nervous. I would have never join such a thing, only becuase the team desprartly need a girl and there is a free gift package. I am so like a typical singaporen, yeah I am.

Was visiting JoQ's blog, super random as usual. and there was a link about some bassist-which was about victor low. Yeah, and I being super KEPIO, checked it out. There was a christian camp and more christian things. Ah. Why dont Cj have those things. Ah, they had games. worship, playing instrument and even a outreach concert. Ahhh. All that cjc has, are masses and prayers. okae at least they have a christian background of christianity. I should stop complaining.

Sunday, March 23, 2008 @ 10:08 PM

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Went to church not expecting much-Just thought that it would be the usual sermon. but got more than what I had expected. Ps Ezekiel's preaching really made me stop and think. Are we still crying-with our hope still in dark despair when Our Lord is risen. Or are we like John and Peter, knowing that something extrodinary has happen but just walked away clueless. I feel that I am so much capable to do more, just am not doing it-becuase of my detoriating relationship with God. But what are we actually suppose to do? Confused me again.

School resumes tomorrow. And I really feel like poning school. Not that I dont like going to school, or the people there. It jas just become a fatiguing routine. And plus tmr there is a 4 hour continous break till Mass PE at 4pm. Sigh! I have to get accusstomed to the 'doing-hmk-during-breaks' thing. Cause I am so used to coming home and finishing hmk till till midnight. Aj Jc life is both mentally and physically tiring. When I am not doing hmk, I think about the unfinish hmk everytime and the thought that I might be retained. Am i being parrnoid again. And plus Netball-shooting especially. and I have not been practicing my shooting and season starts in april. I am very tired of playing netball-I will rather be in interact club or even join student coucill. Now I am just complaining. okae better stop.

Thank God for singapore's good laws especially regarding censorship. Becuase The world we already lived in is super evil- and what more, this is so random. But if you watch the same movie on the a singpaore channel and elsewhere, you will know the vast difference.

Today we had family lunch And I have utterly fallen in love with my youngest cousin. Joyanna. She will be the most considearate and caring girl that you will ever meet. seriously! Like if you ask her for some of whatever she is eating-even if it's like a chocolate ice-cream, she will share literally half with you. And I mean it. She will help clean your table and even write a note for you. Just seeing her today really made my day(:

Thursday, March 20, 2008 @ 9:15 PM

hello(:
Oh. Most of the anticipated results were out today, of which none included me. Kirffith made it into the Hockey team. She just cant wait for her intensive training to start. Ah! Okae she will have to just wait as see. Sherry and Queenie also got into the Fencing team. HAHA. yeah and they claime it actually fun. yeah being fully covered and poking people is actually very fun.
And the PW grouping are out. Thank goodness! We all tried to act not-interested, but actually all our hearts were pounding, okae maybe just mine. HAHA. And I am pretty glad with my group members: Queenie/Aaron/Ken. It's like so unfair, that some group have 5 people, so each one have to do less work. Okae, I shall not complain. Though I always though that somehow, I will be put with people I cant relate to-Like some reverse nature thing. And Now I am being paranoid, that the school will change the grouping, becuase I am so very happy with them.
Today half the population of the school attended mass in the morning, straight after assembly. I wanted to crash it, though it was suppose to be for catholics and want-to-be-catholics. So stepped into the hall, and backed out again. Okae I was scared that they will convert people or pressurize me to turn to Catholic. So instead, had to attend some value-class with our home tutor, where we had to rate our values from 1 -25.
Then I started thinking deeply, something I dont do often. What are the important values in my life? Or is there a need to have important values or are all values important. So was having a heated discussion with Shaun and Bestlyn. Of almost all of shaun's top 5 values are my bottom 5. Okae. Very different people we are. And was talking to Bestlyn about religion. Yeah. was kinda excited becasue I thought this was the moment, to tell her about God. But then I was speechless and so super self-consicous. I dont know why and I feel all so irritated. Like I should have done more. So we made some kind of agreeement-such as I will write for her verses from the Bible, and she will read them and judge for herself. I am not really sure how will this work. And not even sure if this is a good idea. Sigh.
Love. Like we were discussing cannot be compared by anything. But this whole week, was trying to find out something, that relates to Easter. And today somehow, got the answer.
There is no greater love than He who lay his life for a friend.
Not sure whcih book nor verse this is from. oops. Okae, cause no one in this world will ever lay his life for a friend. This is only possible through the Love for God and Jesus himself.
Took pictures with Cjc people today during our 2-hour break. After finishing our hmk. We are still good people(: But the freaking phone cant get connected to the computer.
And suppose to meet church girls for earthquake ice-cream. So this are some of the girls(:

Tuesday, March 18, 2008 @ 9:15 PM

hello(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE LIN.
I have known this girl since I was very young and we were always in the same sunday school class(:
School ended early today, Thank goodness! Not like yesterday where my training started straight after MAss pe, which btw was a killer. We were made to run 7 rounds then do my muscle-straining exercise and finally the grand-stand torture. But the guy were mush worse-off, but whatever! they are MEN. Then I thought I could skip the running-part of netball, but NOO. I was not spared! So another 7 rounds. HAHAH I really hope this will help me lose weight. But training yesterday was pretty slacked, becuase Coach was having a deep conversation with Anne. Yeah, so we were just hanging on the court talking about some TRIANGle-strategy. Which was also very funny, cause at any 3 points you stand, You already made a triangle, but she wanted us to stand in her way og Triangle.oh, Daphne and I was talking about family member's names, and she went,"imagine a family who has numerical names, like ten thousand. With the surmane Tan. So it becomes Ten thousand Tan(ton). Okae then we just cracked up at the bus-stop like mad girls. HAHAH.
Oh, and yesterday Kirffith had a supprise birthday cake, actually it's supprise to many of us also. And our welfare head, Stella said this, " okae let's throw the cake away!" after the cake was cut. HAHHAHA. THat was so insane and random.
I am so glad about Good Friday, for all the wrong reasons. One of which is that its a SCHOOL HOLIDAY. YES YES YES. Becuase I am getting extrememly bored of all the lestures. Tutorial are bearable, but lectures can kill me. I have become a time=addict. I have started checking my watch like 5-10 times in an hour. Like a aneroxic person, who checks her weight 15 times a day. Well, soduku has help me alot, especially during China Studies Lecture. Which is so boring and irksome. But i have vowed to never ever skip any lectures, no matter what.
Oh and I was shush by Angelina twice today. Oh man, I am very unhappy about that, not at her at least. Because I am always so distracted in the classroom. Well, it was actually suppose to be a group thing, and we were sitted at the back. And I was explaining to Sherry/Joshua/Bestlym, then the teacher was talking so softly. Ah. I will try not to get shush anymore. I hope!.

Netball camp pictures stolen from phebe!. NEtball team 08

Saturday, March 15, 2008 @ 3:52 PM

hello(: (she is the one next to me-my cousin(:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL. Love the earthquake ice-cream(:

The week of holidays is coming to an end. Sigh, dreading school and the required homework that needs to be handed in. I always feel extremely tired when school starts though I try to get about 6-8 hours of sleep. Anyway, just returned from my netball camp. It was pretty tiring and filled with body and muscle aches. All because of the rainy weather, so couldnt play games or do drills, and all we can do is conditioning. So found it very hard to even wear my shorts, because couldnt even bend my legs. I need to learn to stretch properly! But the bonding part was fantastic. really. Cause I learnt more about my team-mates through the mambo night, the games and the talking crap. But the netball part is quite tiring and I really feel no motivation to play. It has been about 6 years of playing netball. And i feel super sian. So camp ended about 9pm, and returned home so tired.

But the following day really woke me up. HAHHA plus the throbbing pain in my muscles. We went to sentosa. First it started out with 3 girls, end ended with 5. VAL/MICHELLE/HUILING/SHALINI. Thank the Lord that it didnt rain till we were sick of the sea. Took many pictures and video. So VALENTIN SEOW needs to send them to me(: and we made a music video. Well, we tried to make one.HAHAH ended up with loads of bloopers.

THANK JoQ for the many encouraging notes-past and present. Cause recieved her cards because when for cell, due to the cancellation of sneakers training. Ah, what about next week?

Dont really feel like blogging anymore.

I dont want to go back to school. I dont want to do any more homework nor study. I dont want to go for any training anymore.

I want to read a book from a library. I want to play a nice song on the paino. I want to sleep for long hours and not worry about the date-line for the econs project. Which btw is so useless! GO to pula ubin and try to maximise the land use. WHATT. Just stick with teh tutorials please.

Yes. Tan HUILING is right. cause she saw me looking so jovial at cell then she said, " She wont be smiling when she is at home" okae, so I have almost completed all my written homework, but I still have this econs group thing dued on friday. yup. That's the thing about being in a group, it is very hard to get everyone together especially during a week of holidays.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008 @ 5:35 PM

hello(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAYNAT aka NAT TAN(:

All the best for the american election!!!
Yeah. I made it to my first lecture, and I was pretty early for the history lecture. There is so much content in SEA and it was like 2 hours long. But Mr Rajoo made it bearable with his weird jokes about monks, so we just cracked up half-way through. Sigh, tmr there is Netball camp which starts at 7.40 am at kallang. WHATTT. I have to carry my barang all the way to kallang. HAHHA. And The camp break at 9 at night. Man 2 whole days gone. I was planning to do my cleaning-up of my room and revising my notes. And there is this Cambridge thing going on. Yeah, I am saying this so normally, but actually this is a BIG affair. Only 5 students will be selected to attend a 2 week-course in CAMBRIDGE. The one in Uk, not the one near our church!. So we have to do this oral presentation with a slide show about the effectivness of the UN. How broad is this topic. Who knows? Well, they also select according to the o level points. So very slim chance of getting through, so still thinking whether to embark on it. Cause it may be a waste of time.
Headed for lunch, only to realise that the western stall was open so decided to go with JARAD/SHERRY/JOSHUA/QUEENIE to town to eat subway. Such a healthy lunch beofre intensive camp. HAHHA but everything was spoile with the Double Chocolate Cookie. yeah then met NAOMI/SWEE/DEBBIE. Ah. really miss them, especailly debbie who I have not seen for so long. Seeing her reminds me of Kayminn and Bel, becuase we used to stay back and study at the bench beside 4/3 classroom. Though, I have made new friends, somehow still miss the the old ones. and I think that the friendship made in sec school was be the strongest, among the primary and JC. Somehow! maybe. I hope(:

Monday, March 10, 2008 @ 2:57 PM

hello(:
Today went for my 1st holiday training. and missed my first holiday lecture maths cause I woke up late. Oops. my alarm sounded at 6, but then i snooze all the way to 7. Yeah and the lecture starts at 8. Oh well. Then training was all about fitness and physical conditioning. We ran for a bout 1 hour, slow jog to novena/newton. It wasnt so bad as I thought it would be. That was the hardest part of the entire training. Caues after that we pretty much slack, just did a couple of drills and physical thing.
Went to visit the Su campsite as guests, but ended up being a camper for the night. Cause decided to stay over, since it will be my last time there. Didnt sleep at all, becuase the games were from 1am to 4am. HAAHHA yes, and I had to leave at around 7 to go to church. Went there with VALNETIN, and MICHELLE was suppose to go, but she was missing! So spend most parts of the camp with ROMEI/JOYCE/AARON. The theme of the games was '12 hours before Christ's death. So you would guess how deep the games were. It was such a psychologial affair playing those games. Especially the Last days, where my group, CANDY have to come up with a password then hide somewhere. If we are caught my the facilitors, we can either give our passoword or go through intense 'torturing' Yup. Like ROMEI, had to dig up some drain with her bare hands, the place is like ancient buliding with a small forest behind it. And Issac had to do about 60 men's push up. Then he had to sit on the chair and look at me doing pushup, everytime he refuses to tell the password. HAHAHHA. my arms ached like hell the next day okae(:
Went to church feeling like a zombie, perhaps looking like one to. Couldnt concentrate much when ps Ezekiel was talking. Felt like sitting on the floor, and resting my head on the chair. Seriously wanted to. But somehow, time passed relatively fast. Thank goodness! However, was pretty hyper when went out with RACHEL/VALENTIN/MICHELLE/HUILING. These people always bring out the worst and best in me. And decided to go to sentosa this friday(:
The day before went back to priamry school with long time friend-who-I-didnt-catch-up-with. NIKHITA. met her for lunch with BRENDA and 2 other bald guys from RJC. CHARMAINE!!! Your friends. long links of acquaintance. HAHAHHA. Was indulging in reminiscing, by meeting up with primary school teachers, actually only 2. They all left so early! so talked to Mdm selvie, the teacher who pushed me to get an A for psle. and Ms seng, the founder of my netball skills. Yeah, it was pretty nice seeing all of them again. Then headed for cell, but still was LATE. There is a late clan. CHARMAINE/VALENTINE/SHALINI/MICHELLE/RACHEL anyone can join this club. We didnt even plan to meet up just saw each other in the mrt station and went for cell together. Cell was fun with a good balance of fun and seriousness. We have a girl cell-so love it. Cause we can all talk nonsense and crap and then laugh like mad(: Ah, cell clashes with sneakers taining. AHHH. HOW???? What about alternating. Okae so still not sure.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008 @ 7:04 PM

hello(:
School has been relatively fun, except for the blur-based maths topics which I have no idea how to do! they are so freaking complicated. So I thought I was the only one-staring blankly at the lecture when she was rumbling on about this and that. But thankfully I have a team of blue people, when I attended the tutorial. So we have a class remedial/bridging lesson with the teacher. Thank goodness(: Am so glad that the rest of my subject are arts. Not much of logic is needed, just memorizing and understand a story. So we are currently doing COld War, which happens to be so DEEP. And secondary school notes are useless already, because they happen to be so biased. Sorry mr anthony. But taking pure history definietly paid off, with some knowledge about it.
Have met pretty nice people in CJC. But then things changed. Like I made friends with these 2 super cool girls! Tessa and Cherlynn. Btw, Cherlynn reminds me alot of Joanne Quck. HAHAHA. they have almost the same character. Nosence and funny and come up with weird things and theories!.yeah, they changed subject combination, so they changed class. plus Damian and justin-they are part of the class committee. But then we still try to meet up during the breaks to catch up and I always have a great time(: Damain said a bad word. I was sitting next to him so I scolded him.
me: you are talking to girls okae( cherlynn/griffith were sitting around)
he: he was embarrassed! yes! moment of silence. " you are a girl?"
me: you are a girl then?
cherlynn: yeah went to thailand, cheaper!.
Am really glad that there is a christian gathering every thrusday in school. Really very relieved. Because of the exteme catholic practices. Like before assembly everyday, they say prayers and do the sign thing. and then pray. I would have also prayed, if I only know who exactly they were praying too. So I just stand there, with my eyes open wide. Then met banessa koh during recess, so she just told me about the christian gathering. AM really happy about that(:
bye

Sunday, March 02, 2008 @ 5:27 PM

hello(:
Sunday has now become my favourite day of the weekend. Well, it used to be on friday. Since friday ends very late for me and I am always dead tired, it has become Sunday. All because it has become like a slacking-day, in a positive way. Especially today, because I am not serving in the children's ministry, so was at Youth. And I really enjoyed myself there with the worship, sermon and also by sitting beside Valentin seow. Cause she was EARLY this time. And the sermon was quite easily to understand, because it was in points. So note-taking was less tedious and most importantly, I was able to bring something back from it(:. Such as encouraging each other in our growth as a community of believers. Pretty deep ar? And was shouting at dot tang this morning while trying to have a decent conversation. HAHA. Because we were early birds so decided to catch up and chat about our schools. We were sitting in the 3rd row, and the music was blusting in our ears, that we had to shout. And it felt nice talking to her, as she reminded me alot of sec school and the people there(: btw, we were in the same class for 3 year(: whoo wheee!
Oh. I am the new children Praisesings leader. Yeah, attended the first very meeting today with the help of aunty linda and dot koh. Many children didnt come but the ones that came already made a riot. But it was like an enthusisiatic/naughty thing. So I have to learnt to be firm with them some time and also nice at the same time. Thank you DOH KOH, for volunteering to HELP me. Then headed for the coffeeshop with VALENTIN/VANESSA/PRISCILLA/RACHEL. Where is HUILING and SHALINI? they went shopping in the morning! I seriously cannot believe them!! HAHAHA. But glad that they could make it to church today(:
Oh all the new 17 year-olds made a promise to attend the girl's cell this coming firday. They are people like CHARMAINE/MICHELLE. That would be exciting and a great increase in number of girls in the cell. We all have to go okae! Well, that means that I will have to miss sneaker training that friday.
School resumes tomorrow, my nig history assignment is not completed yet. Oh NO! planning to finish one book by tonight. So wont be a rush during the weekdays. And I need to stop procastinating! Because more hmk will pile on if I dont stop. And I need to remember to wear my school pin and bring my tie to school tomorrow. Before some teacher lectures me about being responsible.
bye(:

Saturday, March 01, 2008 @ 2:41 PM

hello(:
It's been a pretty weird week. But am getting use to the speed of the JC. That means walking from one lecture theatre to another one and heading for netball training after school which starts at 5. Man, I always feel dead tired after a school day. That explains why I now always sleep at 10.30. The lesson are getting tough and work is piling on. Like I have to deliever an assignment- reading 2 history books by next thursday. Now I am wondering if taking h2 history is the right choice, Cause it is such a heavy subject. But the history teachers are pretty good and strict. Made a few friends, but not exactly that close friends. Just people to help you get along in the school and spend recess with. And I am so happy that I have these few people. TESSA/CHERLYN/KIRFFITH/EVELYN/YUNYI/QUINNIE/CHERIE/FABIAN.
lectures are so boring that people in my class, sitting next to me are having imagination tp entertain themselves and me too. They are like hoping that the JI guy knocks down the Lt door or play hide and seek in the compound. HAHHA. We were very bored.
Last night headed for sneakers training after school. And this caused a great big comotion at home. All because I didnt bring my handphone. Sigh! scared the hell out of my family when I returned home at midnight. And they thought that I as captured by the JI guy-especially my grandmother who almost called the police. I might even be on the newspaper, like a false alarm thing. Anyway, I actually called them, saying that I will be out with NAOMI/SWEE/FAYNAt having dinner after training. But the traffic jam was so heavy and I was alone without my handphone, so took about 1.5 hours to return home. Ah. Drama. I can tell you. But it shows the concern for me. So was irritated by the drama happening at home last night and at the same time, gald to have a family that cares. Mixed feeling(:
So what is with the Ji- Mas Salamat Kastari guy. I think he is pretty clever to escape from the watchful eyes of the internal security development. Not honouring him or anything, but seriously he ran past man highly-trained police officers and Gurkhas with a limp in his left leg. And he is still currently missing. Somehow I think he might have some inside help, because it'sreally hard to escape. But how would I know right? and some Terrorist Expert thinks that he is currently lying low in singapore-before fleeing to indonesia when the the security is no longer that tight. So yeah, that's why they are pasting posters in the interchangers and bus-stops.
Catch him and chain him and finally kill him. I think that might be a good idea(:

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