blessed

2012-01-31T09:31:00.000+08:00

Two lovely joys in a day
Baby caleb (: Ahhhh. Newborn baby you know.
I should name my lapyop, not mac but calibee, because it sounds very similar to Caleb.

Life at the end of the day is all about choices. Making the most of the time that we have, building relationships that will last and to do your best in whatever we are being tasked to do.

So teach us to number our days, That we may gain a heart of wisdom
Psalm 90: 17

My planning for my academic life is not really very good:/ Probably because I have very close to zero interest in it and my heart seems to be somewhere else, other than in school. Got to believe that I am here for a purpose, far above what I can even imagine and that God expects me to plan and enjoy my nie days.

2012-01-30T01:24:00.001+08:00

Forgiving is like everything.
I struggle with this every time when there is a decision needed to make whether to forgive a person. Helloooo! HAHA. We are not asked to forgive, we are commanded to forgive! It's a choice that's not much of a choice if you want to be filled with joy and lead a victorious Christian life.

Haven been feeling pretty edgy the past few days. Okay la. Edgy is totally the wrong word. ( leaning to be honest and authentic) okay, I was feeling very disappointed and hurt by stuff that happened both in the past and recently. Instead of forgiving the person, I tried other means of figuring out a way to bring back joy or peace in my life like going for a walk in the park:/ the last attempt was me on my knees and explaining to God how hard it is going to be and I can't forget things so easily. But finally, I did. Didn't feel any explosion of happiness or whatever:/ it took like 2 hours while I was doing tang dynasty research that I came to a realization of how I felt. I was free from sadness and even resentment towards him.

I don't know what is going to happen tomorrow or even the days and week ahead, but I know that I did the right thing and yay, my Father is pleased with me :)

2012-01-29T11:06:00.001+08:00

Cambodia humanitarian mission trip!
It's not about me giving but its about me serving God and being used as a vessel.

East Asia next year
East Timor the following year
Africa, years later

2012-01-28T06:47:00.001+08:00

Today is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.

Though we may lose the games and the sun will burn us, though my life seems to have without aim and has become a mere routine, though I have many things to complete and much work to do this weekend, though my heart is weary yet again, I will choose to believe that today is one of the day that God has an amazing plan and purpose for me.

It's hard, but both choices are hard and so, it's better to place my bet on God than anyone else.

I am really looking forward to service on Sunday. :)

I like reading other's tweets especially when it's heart felt and honest.

" sense of security, cannot be secured by humans, only God"

" .... Breaking down my pride"

" don't blame anyone else for your behaviour, start taking responsibility and make a change"

2012-01-27T12:17:00.001+08:00

Going to be a long tiring day today. Heading to national museum to see artifacts and monuments to remind us who we are and where came from. Museums are just way too quiet and creepy at times:/ then have to pack up stuff from hall and lug then back hien and then, find space for them. I really thought my room is packed enough and then I remember there are still lots more things in hall. :)

History lesson this morning at 0830 and after much taking and mostly listening on my part, I took home only one thing! DON'T GIVE UP ON YOUR IDEAS SO QUICKLY, FIGHT AND DEFEND THEM :)

2012-01-27T07:41:00.001+08:00

I did something stupid. I find it hard to differentiate the God's timing to my own human timing. And am reminded about Jonah. How God's perspective is never the 'correct world' perspective, though it may seem extremely natural and even sane thing to do it.

We often say we trust God and He is our best friend, especially when we sing songs out so loudly in church. How truthfully am I being? Is it heartfelt commitments or just noise being made?

But God is a gracious and loving supermen Father. Despite my stupidity and unwise decision, He still loves me. That's the difference. Yesterday, we had a speaker from crusade at our crossroads. He spoke on many things but this caught my attention, God calling us to settle our matter, to reason with Him, to explain, to analyze, to disclose, to untangle, to disclose our sins. To just be able to tell our problems and situations to a loving Father.

"Come now, let us settle the matter,"
says the Lord.
"Though your sins are like scarlet,
they shall be as white as snow;
though they are red as crimson,
they shall be like wool. (Isaiah 1:18 NIV)

2012-01-25T23:01:00.001+08:00

fadära 10, originally uploaded by riisli.

Travelling to and fro to school everyday for about 3.5 hours is no joke seriously.

Today, I really felt like staying in school the entire day because the thought of travelling just kills my brain cells. okay la, not so extreme. But travelling with a stuffed nose, with low iphone battery and being alone is the cause. Though the latter factor can be an advantage at times:/

I miss the days, when listening to corrine may and doing work is possible. I would listen to her entire album while attempting to complete my history and econs essay at some unearthly hour after training during my jc days. It was just me and her at night, where (I know it might sound stupiddd) it would be so encouraging to hear and feel that every sentence would just speak to me or just the sound of the piano would calm me.

My favourite songs
Angels in disguise
Let it go
On the side of me
Beautiful seed
shelter

2012-01-24T22:28:00.000+08:00

This post may be a bit edgy to some, but it's a good thought provoking article to read!

Instead, variants of the serpent's question to Eve---"Did God really say?" are floated, as if somehow this case might be eligible for an exemption, considering how much they love each other, how the unbeliever supports and understands the Christian's faith, how they are soul-mates despite the absence of a shared soul-faith.

Having grown weary and impatient, I want to snap and say, "It won't work, not in the long run. Marriage is hard enough when you have two believers who are completely in harmony spiritually. Just spare yourself the heartache and get over it." Yet such harshness is neither in line with the gentleness of Christ, nor convincing.

Kathy Keller

http://thegospelcoalition.org/blogs/tgc/2012/01/23/dont-take-it-from-me-reasons-you-should-not-marry-an-unbeliever/

2012-01-23T22:37:00.001+08:00

happy chinese new (:
Dani led worship this sunday! HAHA. First time praying for contractions, kicking and Caleb that morning.
God speaks in all kinds of way!

2012-01-22T00:18:00.001+08:00

Heartache tonight

It's the feelings again, that I try to forget and forgive but failed terribly. It's time to destroy and delete and let go.

2012-01-21T14:11:00.002+08:00

I think the non-chinese everywhere is quite bored during cny period. :/
But there are some nice souls, like wanting who wants to meet me (: yayy.
My family is so bored too that we engage in weird conversations

sister: you think you so popular?
grandma: yeah la
HAHAH.

I think I would attempt to bake cupcakes again and was thinking of getting fighting fishes to play with during these holidays. But it's a bit expensive considering that it won't live that long. None of the pets that I attempt to keep lived very long:/

Yesterday's wind was so strong and chilly. So I decided to take a walk and talk with God from the mrt station back home. yess, lovely dates with God on a Friday night you knoww (: You should try it too, whoever you are! I feel its good to have some solitude and silence in life, especially after being in a company of friends for so long. Sometimes, I am so caught up with petty affairs that I fail to spend some serious time waiting upon God. Definitely, the walk home was not enough and I would go to the park and sit somewhere quiet if it was not that dark.

Reflected upon the week with marwin and irfana. Nice to be vvvv honest with them (:

2012-01-21T12:12:00.000+08:00

pictures taken my evelyn chen (:
He is a 6 week old baby who has lung infection:/
Small being with big problems.

2012-01-20T07:37:00.001+08:00

Neglect is an unseen experience. Abuse usually makes itself obvious but neglect goes unnoticed. Sadly our culture is submerged in neglect and emotional abandonment.

Neglect is the silent killer of community.

By David Eckman, ' knowing the heart of the Father'

2012-01-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

wasted my day today.
My heart is in like two places. Is it possible?
I went for a jog and then climbed this new bridge and sat on the top till seven, just looking at the sky (:

2012-01-18T20:28:00.001+08:00

Highlight of last week: Went for our history heritage tour on sunday for our history project. I enjoyed walking, hearing bits of history news and especially just enjoying the sun, wind and environment together with taking random shots using the colour accent (:

These are some of the nicer pictures!

Group mates on our first shot using g12 flip screen yall. HAHA

Artistic shot, I think. art is defined by the person!

HAHAH. Her yellow phone, which was a strong colour contrast

Attempted to take joel's green shirt but not vv strong

God's wonderful creation of the grass looked nicer. Strong green and yiheng looking very excited about the tour

Yam ice cream. (: the weather was a killer!

Lets not forget the ice cream uncle and his red bicycle shop.

we thought it was Indian National Market or something, thanks to our leader!

This weird messy tree with it's branches all fallen and check it out, there are only a few flowers (indicated by the pink thing there)

Nice profile picture, which I took! HAHAH

couple time. I am still shocked that they only knew eachother for 6 months! HAHAH

I don't really think it's street art, more like street wall paper. Nonetheless, it looks stunning

This is what I called real street art.

2012-01-17T09:04:00.002+08:00

Am currently reading this book, ' cultivating your inner life'. Yepp, it's quite deep but vv interesting. It's how we need to pay more attention to our inner man which would then produced fruit that can be seen on the outside. I feel that most of us are usually taught to do it the other way around.

Devotion, discipleship and discipline :)
Sometimes, I wonder how God speaks, really want to hear His voice. Bit am I keeping a listening attitude? Ehh. HAHA. Shall wait and see. Am heading to school for my one hour less and shall catch up on all my readings.

Today shall be a lovely and untiring day:)

2012-01-14T22:25:00.001+08:00

My slacking day has officially ended:/ needed some time to sit and really ponder about my first week of school.

I am 21 this year and really feel that something exciting or even spectacular is going to happen because its the year where choices and decisions are going to be made, relationships will be strengthen, faith would be tested, flesh would be poked at and talents and gifting will be used to the fullest.

Are you ready for this year? HAHAHA. Don't scared la. This is for me, personally. Everyone goes through a different season of their life, where God will be teaching them different stuff. Hang in there with God :)

Sometimes, when I read other blogs, it strikes me that my posts are of such a low standard in terms of depth an even English:/ well, shall not strive to be someone I am not, I shall just simply be who I was made to be. Nonetheless, have to improve my English for als 101 :) ( academic writing course ) bye bye Cleo and hello to Times and newspaper!

2012-01-14T13:51:00.001+08:00

In the future If my husband questions why I eat so much and why I eat so unhealthy, I would say that's it's heredity. If he does not believe me, I would then say GOD MADE ME THIS WAY! HAHA thank goodness, no one questions my eating and I seriously blame my appetite:/

Nonetheless, when is the next marathon? I need much motivation to run. I can feel that my clothes are getting slightly tighter:/ not a good thing.

at large

2012-01-14T09:46:00.001+08:00

at large, originally uploaded by Andrea Ilin.

Job 38: 8

" Who shut up the sea behind doors when it burst forth from the womb"

(when the Lord spoke to Job)

2012-01-13T00:30:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wish I can believe what I say. What can I do for the King's glory? God provides and He provides in abundance :)

So many differing thoughts running through my head this evening. But am
thankful for the reminder today at crossroad to sit and relax at the feet of Jesus and be grounded in Him. Everything and everybody will pass away and break your heart at least once, but God does not.

My heart has been broken way too many times in my life. This time, I will allow Him to guard it and hold it for me. ( have been trying to be vv honest while blogging because I hope it will encourage those who read it! :) )

2012-01-12T00:10:00.001+08:00

If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.

But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.

(James 1:2-6 NIV)

Reminder to me that I can always turn to God for wisdom and understanding whether its work related or especially when it's life related :) Am feeling abit confused regarding the ministries to serve this year.

My heart seems to be in many places and there is a deep longing to serve God with all the energy and abilities that I have. But like what was said to me during the camp which is how I needed to out my priorities in place and how to decline graciously the opportunities to serve as not all doors open are your doors that you should enter. Deep anot:) HAHA.

. Am excited to be meeting up with sherry for dinner this evening🍲🍔🍟. I hope this emoticons can be seen properly! 🌾🍁🍃🍂🌴

2012-01-10T21:26:00.000+08:00

http://disarmedbyasmile.tumblr.com

' I think it's very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone and not be defined by another person'
-Oliver Wilde

2012-01-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

I look at this picture and I think, MY HOLIDAYS HAVE ENDDDDDDD! HAHA.
looking back at the previous year, I am grateful for all the meet ups, whether randomly or planned way before. Because I have somewhat feel that taking an effort to meet up outside of the normal zones tells me these are relationships worth keeping and hanging on. I feel different this year and though it may be abit hard to not turn back into my old ways, I have a God that is strong and will definitely help me in my weakness (: I am so ready to face you, January!

2012-01-09T21:44:00.001+08:00

Feeling just abit abit sad:( but it's really okay because I know God has a greater plan for me and my future.

School was surprising okay:)
Have to leave two hour earlier to go to school from home:/

2012-01-07T23:54:00.001+08:00

While there has alot of whining and complaining about the ending of the holidays, I shall enjoy my last day of holiday, doing things that I absolutely enjoy doing. On hindsight, I am looking forward to school which would give me another chance, academically. :)

This semester:
Continue to spend time reading my Bible. ( yearly reading schedule )

Being myself and doing things for myself :)

Starting on assignments earlier

Just three goals this semester and I would think it is a good start already. Kinda cleaned up my room and have to say it, LOVE EVERYTHING.

My lit cousin's prayer request that I liked from the tree from last year's Christmas. Need to remember to pray for him :)

2012-01-07T11:25:00.001+08:00

Night out with the girls. Went to chinatown for western dinner and headed to highlanders for good music (: Always nice to have a group of girlfriends! treasure them.

Closer to You

2012-01-06T09:32:00.001+08:00

Thank Lord for a vvv good timetable :). I cannot ask for anything better than that.

Decided to go for training instead of birthday party because of my commitment to the club till the end of the month. It took me almost a year to get to know my team and web plucking up the courage to continue to train with them even when my friends quit. But it was worthwhile, when we went for supper and despite not having much similar topics, there is always one constant interest, netball! HAHA.

I am thankful that I still have an avenue to play competitive and go for games.

Thank you Holy spirit for guiding me , even though the road may be narrow.

2012-01-05T14:08:00.000+08:00

staying at home makes me think more, than usual!

Secret silly wishes that I am hoping will come true this year. If you are reading this, help me okay (secretly)

large whole number of tweets! HAHA
Reblog of my very own tumblr picture
canvas sheet of polariods
Witness the entire process of a sunset
Spent new year anywhere other than Singapore

2012-01-05T00:48:00.001+08:00

Last set of Winnie the pooh film ends with a nice meet up session with Ernest and Tabitha :) always lovely meet up with small groups of friends.

We ate at Thai express that gives small portions and alot of entertainment from dropping of plates to waiters tripping on steps:) then headed to single scoop for cheap and good ice cream. The lychee martini is a must have! HAHA. Then we did a personality test and updated each other on our strengths and weakness:/

2012-01-04T23:01:00.001+08:00

I am feeling vvv sad and abit depressed that school is going to start soon. It was never like that before. I used to be super excited about getting ready to go to school when I was younger. Would spend a week neforw buying new stationary, bag and never a new pair of school shoes. Why is it now, God that I don't look forward to school at all. It feels like some sort of burden. There must really be more to this feeling and it's definitely not normal, for me anyway:/

Deeper analysis

Doing work and being lagging behind because of the new modules that I am taking

Finding for the right friends. I do have good friends in school but part of me is still trying to fit in to a certain group of people.

Lack of purpose? Doing things because I ought to not because I want to.

What happened to me.

2012-01-04T14:16:00.001+08:00

Hello(:

Changed my skin so as to give a new look for the new year.
Am resting at home, enjoying the peace and quietness of being able to do whatever I want and more importantly, whenever I want. Shall savour every moment of my last part of my holidays. HAHA.

Glad to say that amidst of dread of returning to school, there is a tinny whinny part inside me that is looking forward to going back to really show myself that I can pull up my gpa and be a more organised and planned person.

Attempting to de clutter my life for obvious reasons. Need to move on in life and not look back. (:

Am meeting my loveliest friends for dinner later, exciteddd
No more tag-board:/

You grace is enough for me

2012-01-03T16:34:00.000+08:00

Third day of a new year
Everthing is going fast right, or am I the only person feeling this way?
Kinda wanted to do a recap of my december, but it's the new year and it's already JANUARY!
December was extrememly memorable, lovely, hectic and vvvvv tiring.

Resolutions that can be publicised (:
Eat a fruit a day
Go for two runs, whatever the distances. (preferably, 10km and 21km )
Lose weight! (yearly thing)
Learn to say NO
Have more ME time (:
Read my Bible everyday.

2012-01-02T08:53:00.001+08:00

Date with someone special :)
I know that He will never fail me or break my heart. I am the most secured in His love.

2012-01-01T07:52:00.001+08:00

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring

And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives

And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give

How can I keep from singing your praise? How can I ever say enough, how amazing is your love? How can I keep from shouting your name? I know i am loved by the king, and it makes my heart want to sing

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

2011-12-31T02:21:00.000+08:00

I chose otherwise
Decided that everything else was far more important than spending time with my Father. Even though there were plenty of reminders throughout the day. Stubborn :/ really very stubborn.
Heart is heavy again.

2011-12-30T18:21:00.000+08:00

META CAMP
was the camp that I felt totally relaxed, refreshed and excited about my life with God. It's has really been a long time since I went for a camp, without any responsibilities or any service. I loved every moment of it.
The focus was entirely on the sessions and Word and everything just seemed to fall into place. Can't really explain how happy I am to have chosen to go for this camp

I am happy for a quiet and sensitive group (: Didn't have to be filled with energy or loud but to be able to just be quiet and rested throughout the camp.

2011-12-25T15:31:00.000+08:00

Blessed Christmas everyone (:
It was a rather quiet christmas this year, but it was good since my entire year was quite a rush. Went with marwin and junity to Joel's church outreach last night. The food was super good and it was simple, meaningful and chinese, so had to depend on translation from junity and marwin. Which is good because that means that they would have to like understand the message! (: There was also the 'everything' skit put up by his youth and it was different to be watching it then to be always acting in it. So am reminded of how Jesus came to earth to fight the evil forces, that seems subtle yet equally as dangerous for us. I guess both vanity and love is probably the forces in which I become far from God. :/

the food was really good! (:

2011-12-24T11:46:00.000+08:00

Homecoming camp
The most tiring yet fulfilling experienced. It's my first time being part of the youth camp comm. I am amazed at the amount of work needed to conduct the camp! HAHA Truely enjoyed myself working together with a committed bunch of people. I am also very loved by my friends who totally supported me and always cared for me during this vv tiring camp (:

God also spoke to me through a vision and people and it was really amazing to know that God cares for me. It was a very tangible moment.

2011-12-20T02:37:00.000+08:00

Honestly, it's amazing to have the brains of a 20 year old girl that is able to see how a tiny baby like Gloria can grow up to be a beautiful young thing (: How she was unable to utter a single word to singing all kinds of songs. How her palm was so tiny and small that I dared not even hold her to being able to have so much movement. How she was unable to understand or comprehend anything and thought that people around her were giants or aliens to being able to related and remember names and recongise faces. Thank you God for putting so much thought and work in creating us (:
I told her to copy me, and she did everything I showed her! HAHAHA

2011-12-20T02:28:00.000+08:00

youth camp starts in a few hours
Am feeling very tired and drained mentally from the preparing for the games :/ I don't think it's suppose to be like that. I have to change my work ethics, seriously need to change them. Though being the games ic for a youth camp, have realised both my strengths and weakness.

weakness: Super last minute, dislike to work in a group, 'i am right' attitude, don't ask for help. :(
strengths: organisation and ?

Last meeting, we had to share our spiritual life and expectations for the camp.
Expectations:
1. To build relationships with the younger youths
2. Finding a sense of security and peace even during this season

2011-12-18T00:57:00.001+08:00

http://awesomepictures.me/
Used to buy paint and paint brushes for myself, as a christmas gift whenever people give me money as a gift. Seldom do I actually sit down, reflect and paint. HAHA. Probably just liked the idea of being able to paint and having all the resources needed.

http://alovelyescape.blogspot.com/2011/12/12-days-of-christmas-brown-paper.html

I love gifts wrapped in brown paper and so I shall wrap some stuff with brown paper from Daiso. (:

2011-12-17T19:20:00.000+08:00

Girl's thanksgiving/gift exchange dinner

vv thankful for my cell group of girls and abit sad that this is last year, together as a solely girls cell. Next year, we will be moving up into the young adults fellowship and will be combining with the guys. Had a good time of chatting, joking, watching wipe out, doing the list of 30 thanksgiving, playing super hilarious games inspired by youtube and thanks to val, made funny music videos.

2011-12-17T11:06:00.002+08:00

Hello (:

It's not over yet.
The battle is life long.
I have a GOD, who I know is always there for me.

Have a little faith in me

2011-12-15T18:24:00.003+08:00

http://onwithmylouboutins.tumblr.com/

Can I have a Christmas somewhere else, other than here. Can I see huge big live trees festooned with lights, roads and buildings that decorated and people smiling throughout. I am hoping to get into the exchange program to Boston.

2011-12-15T14:44:00.001+08:00

So hard Lord :(
Today's devotion:
Shall not allow my feeling to determine my everything. Is it like possible?

(via inspiring-pictures)

2011-12-15T10:29:00.002+08:00

Went out with yinghui and sharlini for dinner and then rushed to catch 'new year's eve' movie which was pretty bad:/ HAHA. It just somewhat added to the holiday mood and yes, reminded me to go find my 2010 'to-do'list because I didn't make any resolutions this year, knowing vvv certainly that I won't be able to keep them.

2011-12-14T10:57:00.000+08:00

I am back in hall clearning some stuff and returning nie's lousy laptop back to them and found out pictures in the comp that I koped from tumblr. Not sure where it's from though:/

2011-12-13T17:52:00.000+08:00

http://misswallflower.tumblr.com

It's the hardest to be hurt by the people you are closest to because you know them and probably trust them. I was thinking that if some random person on the street would have done the same thing, I wouldn't have felt a thing and would even have said a prayer for that person!.

Dislike the phrase that we are all humans and have our own weakness. yes I already know that. I dislike this phrase even more, that it's because of anger that such stuff happened. HAHA. excuses please.
In my anger, I don't do or say stuff. I have learnt not to anyway.

2011-12-13T13:44:00.000+08:00

Am at home, browsing through websites and blogs. party watching you tube videos on minute to win it. HAHAH. okayy. This is not my favourite wedding theme, but I do like the table setting and the ambience of the wedding lunch. Wedding at an inn!

http://www.stylemepretty.com/gallery/gallery/inn-at-rancho-santa-fe-wedding+6127

2011-12-13T12:22:00.000+08:00

mentor and very good friend (:
really appreciate the time spent talking and encouraging one another and most important, being held accountable to each other.

Had a great dessert at this posh looking restuarant that had many small cakes, pastries and just sweet stuff

Christmas light really do give the christmas feeling. Helps to create the mood. I sound very commercial, but it's the honest truth.

My favourite dessert, tiramisu cheesecake. shiokness!

We had this mini gift exchange, with very meaningful gifts
Bought for wanting a water bottle so that she can drink lots of water and thus, less likely to fall sick. Valentin bought her a world stamp notepad since she is always travelling around the world and thus can use the note pad to write letters to us.

I bought for val a notebook, because she like to write down stuff in a small book. Wanting bought for her gel, forgot why:(

Wanting bought for me a jar of hearts which is essential to scrap booking, which I love doing! Val bought me a scent thing for my room, because I told her that in hall, it's been hard to sleep at times. <3

2011-12-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

Being on the internet too long seems actually very meaningless. Very hard not to be on internet, when you have a iphone. Have to plan my day out so that I will not waste it away and really, the day can zoom without you even knowing and suddenly, when I check the time it's like 3.30 pm:/

2011-12-08T00:49:00.002+08:00

Ikea again with patti, patti's friend and attai (:
Sometimes I wish for a every growing bank account so that I can buy everything single beautiful thing,
Can't wait to buy my own house. soon!

love the purple and white colour

grandma and long time good friend

All the pretty kinds of standing lights

PRETTY LAMPS

2011-12-08T00:40:00.000+08:00

Went to Ikea on Monday to meet with the lovely people of nie.
sadly, was not able to see Ernest before he leaves fro Thailand even though we were so near to his hometown.
Had a vv long journey there but am a happy contented girl when we reached there to have chicken wings and good conversations that has no relation to school with tabitha and joel . loveee it <3

2011-12-08T00:02:00.002+08:00

Animals and Us camp
I enjoyed myself alot and learnt much more than I expected.
Thank God for a great weather (: it was so good that I am amazed at how it did not rain for two whole days and it poured like mad today! It is God no matter what anyone says.

Shar. The most mischievous boy who was the closest to me by the end of Tuesday. He will hold my hand and talk to me stuff, which I barely understand. HAHAH

Na Na. The youngest and loudest girl. Took a day till she opened up,

(: Buddies during the zoo trip. They will hold hands and walk together.

Carrying the younger kids when they are tired

Daniel. He called me black when I first saw him at the door. But during the two days, he always sheepishly smile at me.

She drew me a picture during art

Some of the girls in my group, who tried to teach me malay

ernest mentioned that the elephants have sad eyes.

The speaker mentioned that the elephants have a very close bond with their trainers. That through this bond, they are able to carry them with their trunks

2011-12-07T23:27:00.000+08:00

Father's Heart Conference on Friday evening and Saturday morning.
Prepared me for Sunday's service. I needed every bit of confidence and courage to go up when this guest pastor asked us who have been having a string of disappointments. I would have never gone up, especially in a main service. But I remembered that it's okay to be a fool for God. And I knew that I just needed God during this time and that was it.

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And He hears me when I call

2011-12-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

Spent a over an hour at Tacman last monday.
Realised that I need to read better books.
It's been quite awhile since I last spent the day with attai especially with living in hall and school. So we shopped, stared and ate at Somerset and then at Bugis.

2011-12-01T09:22:00.004+08:00

http://itsamary-thing.tumblr.com/

Random pictures from browsing though tumblr. yess, my nikon is sitting on my shelf waiting to be used or waiting for the battery to be charged. (: Am somewhat enjoying the slow peaceful lifestyle of not having to rush for deadlines or wake up early and at the same time, I miss doing all those things that gives me some sort of rush and excitement,

Am heading to Beyond social services this afternoon, to meet up with the kids (: really looking forward to getting to know them and working with my group members. HAHA. I am really praying that something good and great will happen in the 2 days of camp. I mean like God can work even when it's not a christian camp right (:

So am a thanful person for alot of things in my life and am waiting for a wonderful semester ahead and of course, for the month of December.

A verse that really spoke to me is

Matthew 5:41

"And whoever compels you to go one mile, go with him two."

I feel that it's easy to go a mile with people, but to actually go 2 or 3 or even run a marathon with them really is something else. Sadly, most people don't do that because it's challenging, time-consuming and even self-scarificing. But last semester taught me that God honours those who seeks to build His kingdom up and we are not in any lack of anything, especially in time if we do these things. At the same time, need to be discerning and filled with wisdom to occupy yourself with the right kind of things (:

We won 3rd place

2011-11-30T17:02:00.002+08:00

Awesome group that got alot of scolding and love from their both wonderful leaders!

Estalla's first time in KIDS CAMP. + Benny and Bryan

Survived 3 days of camp. 3 days ONLY!! HAHAHa

Nathan Lau helping me to scrub the tables from the ink:) Super proud of him!

Benny! Joanne's cousin.

Youngest member of Bubble Bee, Shannon. She asked me to pat her to sleep!

Was helping out in the toilet. The girls were so sian, while waiting

HAHAH girls in the dorm. Havoc and craziness. couldnt even take a nap:/

Grace, from GB (: Such a kind and helpful girl (:

2011-11-27T07:37:00.000+08:00

hello
I don't know.
It seems like being a christian is really quite hard. to be able to have the right attitudes, right standard and right everything is like hard. Really feel that I need to take a break from the right of everything. Not that I am always right:/ don't know how to explain actaully.

Today am printing out my games proposal and am awaiting for a long meeting and a skit rehearsal after that:/ Ahhh.

Am I ready for Sunday Service, this morning.
not really.

2011-11-24T08:29:00.001+08:00

Lord, help me to love the children just the way You loved me.

No biasness or favouritsm and equal discpline and expectations (:
It's time to serve God after having been blessed so much from Him.

Words can never say the way he says my name
He calls me lovely
No one every sees the he looks at me
He sees me holy
Words can never hold this love that burns my soul
Heaven holds me
Oh, heaven holds me

Can't hold my love back in you
Can't hold my love back in you
I've gotta sing
I've gotta sing
Sing my love
To you Jesus yeah

You will not believe the way he touches me
He burns right through me
I could not forget every word he said
He always knew me
Earth could never hold this love that burns my soul
Heaven holds me
Oh, heaven holds me

2011-11-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

hardhardhard.
Trusting in God and His best for our life can be hard and tiring.
Hold on because God love and cares for you. That's all I know.

2011-11-24T00:08:00.000+08:00

ohyes
EXAMS ARE OVER AND THE SEMESTER IS OVERRRR. well, sem 1 only. But still, I AM SO HAPPY (:(:

Did self reflecting with tabitha, joel and ernest at cityhall, right after history paper.
Thank you Lord for good lasting friends and teaching me so many things during the past 3 months.

2011-11-24T00:03:00.000+08:00

sunday morning with gloria.
really amazing how God creates us, from a tiny little thing to a small little and finally a big thing like what we are now (:

2011-11-23T23:23:00.000+08:00

overdue stuff
Father's birthday was spent at holland V (:

Midnight

2011-11-19T00:03:00.001+08:00

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You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits.

Whether you're a night owl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle.

Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.

You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

What Time Of Day Are You?

btw, none of whatever that was mentioned above is true. Ehh. just some motivation.
So bored, studying globalisation
Interesing fact of the top of my head: more than 50% of Hollywood revenue comes from overseas.

Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

2011-11-18T22:21:00.002+08:00

geog sucked alot:/
But I should stop saying, die or confirm fail or talking about retaking the module.It's just more depressing.
Everyone else had a manageable papers and they are they are all like happy, so am wondering if I was too ambitious to take a subject that I like to study and don't mind teaching, but have no form of background at all. It went really bad and can't do anything about it.
On a lighter note, glad that I started on human earlier (: So I am really hoping it will go better.

2011-11-16T08:29:00.001+08:00

Started and it will end soon.
The past weekend has really pushed me hard, questioning my time-management skills and inner discipline. :( This coming weekend is full of memorizing and spotting of topics again, because I will need to know both the present state and the past of my world. Important to reflect and think about how I can change for the coming semester :) Really want to do the best with whatever I am given with and most importantly, do it for the glory of God. Sounds very deep and I am thinking if that's my real motivation when compared with the grades and recognition. Am still pondering over it. :/

2011-11-13T01:25:00.000+08:00

crapp. Am scared that am feeling so unworried and chill. And like everyone around me is stress:/ I hope I am studying my hardest. Ahhhh.

Goh Chiok Tock mentioned that competition brings out the worse in us, Singaporeans. I think it goes both ways.

Learning to fix my eyes on God and no one else.

Really hope I can surivive my next two weeks. Four papers.

COME ONNNN. FOCUS HARD.

It feels like A level all again, except that I would have never studied geog.

2011-11-10T10:28:00.000+08:00

Breakfast to kick start my essay-doing day. (:

I want to be able to say this after this semester:

Father, I am proud of my accomplishments. Not the kind of pride that brags, but the kind that makes me feel pleased and warm inside. I've worked hard on this project, test or assignments,yet I couldn't have done it without You. Thank You, Father, for Your guidance and help.

Thank You for teaching me to set realistic goals for myself. Thank You for challenging me to do my best. Thank You for showing me how to love You first, then to love myself as well as others.

If my accomplishments should go unrecognised, no mater. I feel good about them. best of all, I You are proud of me and that You love me.

(when I'm on my knees)

2011-11-09T05:09:00.000+08:00

ohno, I feel so slack. Not god to be overly worried or anxious about finals, need to have that kind of excited to study so I-am-going-to-study kind of feeling. Which explains why I am still blogging. :/

The likelihood to do well seems so unattainable that it makes me feel so slack and chill. yes, but am reminded that being a good and memorable teacher means that I need to be competent in my subjects. So yesssh, I need to study my brains out.

Jaslyn bought for us to mark the dg for this semester. (:

2011-11-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

I feel like hitting my fingers on the keys. It's been like a year since I last played the piano
Can't sing, can't play any other instrument that well.

Everything other than revision seems so interesting! HAHAHHA. Ahhhhhwhooooo.

2011-11-08T09:58:00.000+08:00

God's wonderful world of geography and I am studying to understand and comprehend as much as I can.

Genesis 1:1
In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth.

At times I find myself struggling and losing my way. I end up in one of life's storm. Then I remember that God doesn't always move or end the storms, but He calms my spirit and He gives me a song for courage. God filters through my problems and as I obey Him and read His word, he guides me along life's freeway

(when I am on my knees)

2011-11-07T09:19:00.000+08:00

At 1am in the morning Evelyn, Fabian and Ben bought me tauhauy from thomson road and visited me, then stayed till 3am. Enjoyed their company with crazy dance shuffling moves by Fabian, cam whoring with Evelyn and the cold jokes by Benjamin. yes, Am very touched (: benjamin didn't want his picture taken, because he was feeling self conscious about his pimples:/

2011-11-07T09:15:00.000+08:00

I think we can really treat the people around us better, and with more respect.
Not talking about our friends and family members. Referring to everyone and especially the immigrants in our country. While doing geog's migration topic, came to a realisation that they are just here to work and earn a living. That's all and because they are second class citizens, we can treat them like crap?!?!?! helloooo

So the Singaporean waiting for the taxi can scold a bang la who obviously didn't know that he was queuing up. Will you scold a white man who might have done the exact same thing?

Why are you stereotyping the people from China when your forefather are from there. Yes, they can be loud and money minded, but they are trying their best to integrate into the culture and plus, coming from a poorer country, obviously you will be money minded.

Seriously, we got to stop thinking we are high and mighty because really, we are just a small island with brains. Are we going to be a country with brains and no heart. The next time I hear anyone scolding a PRC or Bangla, I will really just speak my mind. Basic international value, respect regardless of anything, especially status. We are all made equally in God's image

2011-11-05T19:54:00.001+08:00

question spotting:(

risks all over, and am spotting topics for both history and geography:/
globalisation came out for O level social studies papers this year, even though it was already tested for the past 4 years according to my cousin. Globalisation always will and forevera come out because we are living in it now.shall study globalisation then (:

Started listening to radio stations after almost 2 years, since A levels.

2011-11-05T08:36:00.000+08:00

Meet my mannequin-wannabe cousins, pravan and anand at hang ten. (:

2011-11-04T00:12:00.002+08:00

blessed to give than to recieve. (;
Different to think about others other than yourself, even if it's for a few hours.

2011-11-03T09:34:00.001+08:00

I am being taught everyday what it means to be Christ-like in every moment of my life, through my weakness, the respond to my failure, my gratitude to God in my victory and even plainly, my words and action infront of my friends. Someone told me that my life is the battle field or mission field. Sometimes, I tell God how much I want to do be in some
Mission ground, doing His will and being used for His purpose. But this is my mission field. Where I am right now, is where I should be doing God's will.

I said "freak youuu" infront of my Taoist, Muslim and back slided Christian friends. They tell me, aren't Christian not supposed to swear and freak you can be meant as the f-word. :/

Kinda sad to know how I have fall short of God's standard of holliness in my life:( but God is forgiving and abounding in love and so, I am set on getting my life straighten up and plus, I need the Holy spirit's help me:)

How we are blessed truly.

2011-11-02T08:42:00.000+08:00

http://abigailannn.tumblr.com/post/12186972087

2011-11-01T22:39:00.004+08:00

A guy who can play the piano, guitar, drums and CAN SING SUPER WELL (:
okay crapp, suppose to be doing revision now instead of this. :/

2011-11-01T18:20:00.005+08:00

Bukit Timah nature reserve. I enjoyed the walk up and down. Got to see monkeys and monito lizards plus the weather was awesome. Thank You Lord for the opportunity to enjoy your creation.Ohyes we saw huge blocks of limestone.

My aag group and truly appreciate them for allowing me into their group last minute. Enjoyed a girl's day out and also got to know them better.

Then headed to MBS to sketch rock surfaces around the hotel and shopping center. Shopper's paradise if you are RICH!. Check out the jewellery:/

The day out of school grounds was really very stress free and enjoyable, despite being very tired from walking from 10.30 to 5 pm (:

2011-11-01T01:12:00.001+08:00

"Lord, I want to Praise You from the pits. Not the pitss of self-pity, but the pits carefully places in the heart o life's race track. I don't have time to feel sorry for myself. I am in the middle of a race for you.

Each time I round the bend, I trust You to run me through Your checklist to see if I am in alignment and synchronised to Your will.

I know they are others watching me, but I also know You are helping me discard things and habits that would inhibit me."

Anita Corrine Donihue

(:

2011-11-01T00:35:00.004+08:00

So Daphne's bf surprise visit her and bought her supper at 12.30am, which is like now. So sweet right. And he bought me a drink too! HAHA. Super sweettt(:ahhh
yess, it's always nice to have someone to care and buy you supper and to also surprise you at weird timing. It's normal to feel this way okay, so don't judge me.

Today is a Monday :/ Thank good aed 3 hour lesson is over thus, was able to go for macs breakfast. i could really enjoy and eat my pancakes slowly and peacefully with joel, without having to rush here and there. Had Japanese rice for dinner with daphne and got to catch up with her also. We don't seem to go for dinner togeher that often despite living together. . Good meals today, unlike most days.(: Headed to src and was feeling super nervous about everything. But God is really amazed me with everything that happened. Everything happened within like 3 minutes and he told me that I could be excused from netball this year. He didn't even say anything about quitting or lack of commitment:/

Came to a realisation that my geog paper is in another 15 more days! like in 2 more weekends and my content knowledge i barely there:/ Ah. Have to start selecting topics to study again and it feel like A levels all over again.

2011-10-29T22:02:00.001+08:00

Girls' retreat, I hope it does not fall on the same date as supa camp:/ pleaseee. Headed to dani's house for planning led by wanting. Played with gloria awhile and was highly distracted by her.

Hard choice

2011-10-29T03:05:00.000+08:00

I wish choices were as simple, as preference (: new bag-A present to myself.
Trying to finish popluation/mirgration by today :/
Eh, Which colour should I get. Both looks lovely leh.

2011-10-28T17:24:00.000+08:00

My Friday is left with testing out the games for our community service project, slack and fun. Have to really catch up now that most of my major deadlines are over, survived this two grueling weeks of deadlines and sleepless nights (: But after this two weeks, I am reminded once again since I started school year ago that I should not be so last minute! And so will start on my revision plan this weekend. Just study like mad till these next month (:

2011-10-28T09:02:00.001+08:00

I am going to survive my friday (:

2011-10-26T15:28:00.001+08:00

feeling so unfocused at home. But it's a HOLIDAYY, furthermore it an INDIAN HOLIDAY :/

Please tell me that I made the right choice regarding netball. :(
I miss everything about playing netball, from the team spirit, to the adrenaline rush to the excitement of being able to put the shot through to the depressing feeling when you get shouted at. Everything about training and playing netball is nice. It's really a part of me already and am quitting on it. Am team-less now. :(

2011-10-25T23:53:00.002+08:00

hello(;

Ahh, A breather in the middle of the week. Every week should be like this.(:
My skin is like a dust and dirt detector and so its a mystery to find out where is dirty. Maybe because currently, am sleeping everywhere, from on the trains to waiting for the train and to in the library. And so, am left with itchy arms:/

HAHAH. Have been going back home since monday:/ totaly waste of my $200:/

what is God trying to teach me this week?
Eh.
I got some results back from lab work, not good:/

http://mighty2save.tumblr.com

I want this invisible shelf in my house, in the future. (:

I am thankful for people that ask me how I am and how I am doing. Or for people that sent random sms that realises how much I have been blessed. I should be also a blessing to others.

This sunday, I learnt the need to praise God everyday of my life. Not only the physical aspect, but also the heart part where we know and recognise that God is greater than everything else. Praise and Worship is something that don't come as easy as I want it to. So got to put in extra effort to really think about God's grace and goodness in my life everyday and how He is worthy of all our praises. (:

Being joyful=Praising God needs to be dug deep in the well of our hearts.

I cannot wait for the HOLIDAYS.

2011-10-22T22:46:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAH.

2011-10-22T14:54:00.000+08:00

The yahoo news about 'The toddle being run over by a bus and then a van' disgust me. It is even more gross to know that at least 18 people walk or cycle by and not extending some form of help to the young girl. whyyy? why no compassion or sympathy? What can be more important to people than to stop and save a life? Are we all becoming like such people? :/

Back to reality and just back to my own life now. Do I help my friend when she needs help in her work, even when I might be rushing other work or meeting people.

Other than the elderly, disable or pregnant people in the train, do I give up my seats to people who seems extremely tired and worn out that they are falling asleep while standing.

Are we concerned with about our problems, that we fail to see a friend in need of an encouragement word or just a listening ear to their problems.

2011-10-21T19:36:00.000+08:00

ohh. I love watching trailers, because it's like only 2-3 minutes and so appropriate for my short work breaks!

I hateeee having to JUST WATCH TRAILERS, I WANT TO WATCH MOVIES THAT LAST FOR HOURS. I WANT TO READ BEST-SELLING ROMANTIC NOVELS WITH AWESOME STORYLINE AND WONDERFUL SOUNDTRACK.

Something Borrowed

" Have you ever gone down a road, far down the road and wondered if it's not what you want"
" That was the night, that I led true love slip away"

One day

" Whatever happens tomorrow, we will always have today and I will always remember it"
" I am going to be one of those inspiration teacher"

2011-10-20T09:15:00.001+08:00

Today is the day You have made. I will rejoice and be glad in it. I won't worry about tomorrow, giving you my fears and sorrow, wherever you will lead, I will follow. I am trusting what You say. Today is the day. :)

2011-10-19T01:33:00.000+08:00

crappy week:/

Learning to be peaceful even through a brewing storm so that's my challenge this week.
I know I said this many times, but really really cannot wait for this semester to be over.Crazyness totally, with the amount of deadlines for both geog and history. Especially for geography:( And my bad time management totally exasperate the situation.

After this week, 2 history assignments, PBL presentation and report, physical geog field project, Geog presentation and report on stats.

RUN AWAY NOWWWW. HAHAH.
gloria with a beautiful hair band. Girls will always be girly!

Updated iphone, like everyone and suddenly whatspp became so happening. I am off the notifications already. Too much going on there.

Evangeline and tabitha (:

2011-10-17T01:06:00.003+08:00

Today's sermon talked about why we pray.
Reminded me that our prayers are always heard, but not always answered the way we want it to be :/ And how we have to still trust God and continue praying.

Jesus had many unanswered prayers from God too.
We really have a High Priest that can sympathize with us in every situation (:
I wonder at times, if He understands my girl problems..seriously, then I remember that God like created me leh

2011-10-16T07:46:00.001+08:00

hello (:

It's a early Sunday morning, and am at the office printing the amazing race proposal for today's meeting. Really am not sure if I gotten involved with too many things especially during the first semester of studying and transition. Might have an ambitious problem of always saying yes to things before thinking about them:/

During cell last Friday, was reminded of how blessed I am just the way things are. I have a deadline that was extended, thanks to understanding blackbird. (: my friends who deeply care about me (: Evangeline wanted to clean my room with me to get rid of the dust and she really wanted to stay over on thursday to do so! And she says she's unsure that she would ever clean someone else's room but her love for me is growing. A drug dealer friend, Joel who supplies me with every medicine known during the sick week. Fadlun who realily accepts me into a geog group, when I desperately needed one(: Ernest for the lemslip for my flu. Wanting who brought me a scrapbook material from US because she said it's part of my gifting.Yihng who shows me his A grade report so that I can also get an A grade in the future. Irfana who quietly listens to my ranting about how sucky life is and tells me God has a plan and press on, even though she's a muslim. Went out with jc friends who I can be super normal with it and they don't talk about school or assignments at all(. yay! (: Pretty much a blessed person that needs to stop complaining and whining already!.

Youth service will start in 30 minutes (: In every season of my life, whether I like it or not I AM MADE TO WORSHIP GOD. Shall not care if my heart feels like crap, or my mouth refuses to sin or my mind is distracted with the geog lab work due tomorrow morning, I will have a thanksgiving attitude this morning for all that God has done for me

Have a blessed Sunday (:

2011-10-16T00:07:00.000+08:00

what to do when you are angry with the most right person in the world. Which obviously, means that you are wrong.

2011-10-14T02:59:00.001+08:00

this is how pathetic I am

How to Edit a Chart's Data Source in Excel 2010 - For Dummies

Have to waste time finding for such stuff :/ Because I just really don't know how to edit a range in a graph, why so high-tech?!?!?!

Will never allow my students to do an assignment with proper instruction or samples. Okay,

2011-10-11T10:04:00.000+08:00

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,And lean not on your own understand;

In all your ways acknowledge Him And He shall direct your paths.

Do not be wise in your own eyes: Fear the Lord and depart from evil.

Proverbs 3: 5-7

This week brings about a truckload of work which in turns brings about a pressure to complete it. And with my previous sucky grades, I really need these assignment to be worth an A or at least a B+. Grades are just beyond us in some sense, and this verse reminded me to really trust God with everything including my studies. I don't think it meant that we sit passively and claim such a promise because it just shows that we are lazy:/ But it just plainly says that during these time, we are to trust God and put Him first even before these pressing work.

children's day outing at waterfront

2011-10-10T19:46:00.001+08:00